hero.

i guess this may be a little cliche, but my hero is my dad.
for real. i look up to him and my mom more than anyone else, but right now i just want to focus on my dad.
my dad is...
generous
    brave
         friendly
               funny
                    wise
                         protective
                              sarcastic
                                   kind
                                        fun.
he's someone who i know that i can rely on for anything. he's got my back.
my parents have always been hands off with me, which i appreciate. it's helped me since i moved to college last year. it seems a little ironic, but being at college and away has made me realize how much my dad really cared.
cares.
sometimes it's a little frustrating because it seems like whenever i call home and say how frustrated i am with school or how i don't think i can, my dad will tell me to suck it up. carry on. do my best. but i realized that he knows i can do it. he has more faith in me than practically anyone else. he trusts me more than i trust myself.
because of my dad...
                             i like the music i like
                        i have the standards i have
                   i know that i am important.
              i have the testimony i have.
          i have the work ethic i have.
     i love the family the way i do.
i can honestly say that the biggest trials in my life have come from not listening to my dad. but the biggest blessings have come from following his advice.
i don't tell him enough, but i love him. i wouldn't be here without him.

edgewise

 "Wilt thou give up thy garter, oh fairest of the fair"? Anne, nobody speaks that way. And look at that sap Percival who sits around mooning the entire time. He never lets a girl get a word in edgewise. In real life she'd have pitched him. - Gilbert Blythe

i hate coming up with titles.

really truly. i'm even an english major and the thing i probably struggle with the most (and get docked the most for) in my papers is the title.
i know i can write, i know i can write well...why should i have to put forth the last little brain effort at 2 am to put a trite title to the kick butt paper i just wrote? (humble, i know haha) the paper speaks for itself...and all i need for the title should be the name of the assignment and then a short little description.
ex: "Generic Imitation Assignment: Medieval Period Riddles." or "Formal Analysis: Dulce et Decorum Est."
i know titles are important, but i feel like you shouldn't judge a book by it's cover. or a paper by it's title.
just my opinion.
well. it has come to our attention that no one has posted in awhile.
sorry. life happens.
speaking of, a friend and i were discussing the movie 500 Days of Summer. he was saying how sad it is, that it just kind of rips you from the inside and i a little bit disagreed. i mean, yes. it's sad. but think about it. how many of us have been in tom's position? falling for someone and somehow deeply knowing that it won't work out...i mean, she lays it out for him in the beginning. she isn't looking for something serious. but he goes for it anyways and it's good for a bit...but then life happens. people grow.

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growing apart isn't bad. it's good. of course, it hurts a lot but look at the end result. you are so much better than you were before, you've grown so much and are ready for something bigger and better for you. and so is the other person.
perfect example: look at summer. she thought she would never settle down for someone, but she meets tom and he helps her grow, just as she helps him grow. i love the line in the end when he is talking to her after she is engaged to another man.
            summer: I just... I just woke up one day and I knew.
            tom: Knew what?
            summer: ...What I was never sure of with you
of course it's hard and devastating for tom, but the point is that he learns and grows about it. he learns more about the real meaning of love. he learns that there is someone else, someone better for him. i love that. another thing summer says that i love is this:
            summer: You weren't wrong, Tom. You were just wrong about me.

so here's to growing. even if it means that sometimes it means growing apart.

foundations.

today is the day i realize that everything starts from a foundation, either strong or weak.
 
"I've come to believe that all my past failure and frustration were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that have created the new level of living I now enjoy. "
-Tony Robbins

today is the day that i realize that time is a building block, something that can be filled with acts that makes relationships worth while and beliefs worth believing.


"Of all that is good, sublimity is supreme. Succeeding is the coming together of all that is beautiful. Furtherance is the agreement of all that is just. Perseverance is the foundation of all actions."
Lao Tzu

today is the day that tears may come, but tomorrow is the day where the waiting and building of foundations end, and the building begins to rise above it.

"Do you wish to be great? Then begin by being. Do you desire to construct a vast and lofty fabric? Think first about the foundations of humility. The higher your structure is to be, the deeper must be its foundation."
St. Augustine

today is the day that i see that foundations are invisible, something only you can begin to feel in your heart as it grows.

"And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation; that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds, yea, his shafts in the whirlwind, yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you, it shall have no power over you to drag you down to the gulf of misery and endless wo, because of the rock upon which ye are built, which is a sure foundation, a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall."
Helaman 5:12

today i feel impatient, but tomorrow great things will be restored upon the foundation i am building today. things that i cannot even imagine or begin to expect.

"Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable"
The Wizard of Oz

i just need to learn to be patient for tomorrow.

airports

Possibilities. maps. schedules. people.

People from everywhere. the whole globe. in one building. saying 

"goodbye", "welcome home", "get out of my way! I am going to miss my flight"

Our Earth is small. very small.

the other side is only hours away. hours...incredible

You only have to sit in a cabin and wait. that's your only job. Wait. while the big metal bird takes you to a new adventure, a new life.

I think airports give us comfort.

That adventure still exists.

That one of these days. If we wanted.

  we could throw a dart at a map

 and just...go.

And we could never be quite the same when we came back.

let it go.

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Happy Birthday to the Brother

Happy Birthday to my brother Blake! I would very much like to wish him a happy birthday over the phone but some people (like him, my mom, and my dad) will not answer their phone. It's a little frustrating when it's a day as big as this!

When we were younger we would stay up all night the eve before the birthday playing games, watching a movie, and doing whatever we did as a sister and a brother. Then when the clock ticked to 12:00 on the day of June 13 or September 2 (depending on who's birthday it was), we would do a little celebration, then went to bed. We wanted to be the first person to wish the other a happy birthday.

Sadly this could not happen this year with college and different states. I was young when he entered my life so I really don't know life without him. Happy Birthday Blake (hopefully we can talk soon)!